Ramadhan, 2022
This Ramadhan...
Felt harder. My mind have been slow-down a few times already (written on week 2 of Ramadhan), and lately my timeline/daily life changed drastically.
Me, who usually chose night-time over day-time, now forced myself to stay awake at day, and I don't like it... Super noisy, since morning, till afternoon. Vehicle sounds, ambient noises, and more. This felt like my house in Payakumbuh, but a bit better as it's not that direct to public road. But still, compared to other home I live for a long time, this felt so similar to what I felt in Payakumbuh. This is hard... To add cherry-on-top, night-time which usually quiet, also felt more and more similar to day-time. People screaming at night... Or loud vehicle sounds... It became more frequent at 1-1.30 AM, or at 3.15-3.30 AM. The only time that I could say quiet enough is now only at 2.00-3.00 AM. Which is... Only one or two hours max, much smaller compared to usually around five to eight hours in a day. I'm tired...
The only solution that could help as for now I guess... Is probably buy an Active Noise Cancelling headphone, which probably will take another four or five days to arrive. Yet, it's out of stock as of now. I do have a Wireless Earbuds which also has similar feature, but to wear it for a long time felt... hurt, and kinda easy to let loose.
Me... Who have a lot of projects and deadlines to achieve, and lately feel scared of his future... What to do to solve this problems...
I'm tired...